I realized something today; I REALLY need to get back into my writing. It is such a great way for me to relieve stress and at this point in my life, I need all that I can get. I love my children more than I can put into words, but recently their attitudes are larger than life. My daughter is two going on twelve, completely diva, my oldest thinks he knows everything there is to know about the world, and Lucabear is learning that saying "no" gets attention. :-) I've been trying to decide if I would like to re enter the workforce and I"m truly at a crossroads; so many days I feel isolated from adult conversation and sometimes get jealous of my husband. I feel like he is moving up the ladder of success and I'm stuck in this circle of diaper changes, tantrums, sibling rivalry and playdate politics (yes, such a thing does exist). I'm tired and stressed and am probably experiencing burnout.
But then, there are other days when my kids are so amazing; there is so much laughter. Everyday they look at me and tell me they love me, with a sparkle in their eyes that is unbelievable. They grab my hand with their sticky, chubby fingers and I fall in love all over again. :-) It's in these moments that I realize that I am beyond blessed. God has given me the opportunity to spend my days at home with them, raising them into young men and women; I can honestly say there is no job more hard or more rewarding than that of a mother, and in my case, a stay at home Mom.
Please pray for me as I struggle to make this decision. Make it what God wants for our family, and not what my selfish self wants. Since it's been so long since I've written, I think I'll add a few new photos for my blogger friends. Hope every single one of you is having a wonderful day!! God bless!!
